and I thought I'd have some monumental words to share about how great it is to be only 29 pounds away from my goal weight...but I don't.
Yes, I am very happy and feeling fabulous, but I guess today I'm just feeling a bit lackluster. I am blogging today simply for posterity's sake.
I promise to write something inspired when it happens (which is when I usually write anyway).
Thanks for reading this very uninspired blog post today. :)
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Generosity
I'm writing today to talk about generosity.
A funny thing has happened to me since I had my Gastric Sleeve Surgery on January 24th this year. I have become more generous, and yes, it is a direct result of the surgery.
For some strange reason, I have always had an intense fear of ever being hungry. That is why when I go to work, I pack more food and snacks than I could ever eat in the course of a day. Yes, I still do this now, even with a stomach the size of a hi-lighter pen. So, you could say that I am a food hoarder. I don't keep food in my room, or hide food (although I have done that before). But you could say I was very...stingy with my food.
I always had my eye on the serving bowl to be certain that noone had taken the last of anything, and if it looked threatening, I would gather more onto my own plate to be sure I didn't miss out.
This has been a huge revelation for me. I still have the feelings that I might miss out on some of the food fun, but now, I'm forced to be happy with what I have. And let me tell you, that lesson spans over a person's entire life. Be happy with what you have. Quit always wanting more, that little bit extra that you believe will make you happy.
So when I look at my plate, I now realize, "I have the same exact stuff I would be having as before, the flavors are all there...so now, just enjoy every single bite because that's all you get!"
I'm getting to the generosity part.
Being a bit of a selfish person (I'm realizing), it is an entirely foreign concept for me to give away food that is on my plate that I can't eat. And when I do, holy cow. It sets off such a wonderful rush of emotion in me that is hard to explain.
Who knew that sharing my food with others would or could make me feel like such a generous person. The cool thing about that is, it inspires me to want to be more generous in all areas of my life. I am inspiring myself. What????
I want to be a better person. And so I shall be.
xoxoxo
Lisa
P.S.--I'm down 97 pounds.
A funny thing has happened to me since I had my Gastric Sleeve Surgery on January 24th this year. I have become more generous, and yes, it is a direct result of the surgery.
For some strange reason, I have always had an intense fear of ever being hungry. That is why when I go to work, I pack more food and snacks than I could ever eat in the course of a day. Yes, I still do this now, even with a stomach the size of a hi-lighter pen. So, you could say that I am a food hoarder. I don't keep food in my room, or hide food (although I have done that before). But you could say I was very...stingy with my food.
I always had my eye on the serving bowl to be certain that noone had taken the last of anything, and if it looked threatening, I would gather more onto my own plate to be sure I didn't miss out.
This has been a huge revelation for me. I still have the feelings that I might miss out on some of the food fun, but now, I'm forced to be happy with what I have. And let me tell you, that lesson spans over a person's entire life. Be happy with what you have. Quit always wanting more, that little bit extra that you believe will make you happy.
So when I look at my plate, I now realize, "I have the same exact stuff I would be having as before, the flavors are all there...so now, just enjoy every single bite because that's all you get!"
I'm getting to the generosity part.
Being a bit of a selfish person (I'm realizing), it is an entirely foreign concept for me to give away food that is on my plate that I can't eat. And when I do, holy cow. It sets off such a wonderful rush of emotion in me that is hard to explain.
Who knew that sharing my food with others would or could make me feel like such a generous person. The cool thing about that is, it inspires me to want to be more generous in all areas of my life. I am inspiring myself. What????
I want to be a better person. And so I shall be.
xoxoxo
Lisa
P.S.--I'm down 97 pounds.
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