Low energy

Haven't been able to eat much the last few days, and am feeling low energy.  My stomach has felt somewhat irritated and I get full much more quickly.  Not sure what's going on, but I think it's normal from time to time to have irritation.
So I've lost a total of 53 pounds as of this morning.  Yesterday was 9 weeks since surgery.  I can't complain about the weight loss.
I walked yesterday for maybe 15 minutes, and my hips hurt.  So frustrating that I'm dealing with this at age 39.  I only hope that as I lose more weight, the joint issues get better.  My feet are already better by far, so I have high hopes.
Leaving for Tampa Thursday (provided the Miami Airport fires are extinguished) and look forward to putting my toes in the sand!

Bad day yesterday...

I consumed food I shouldn't have yesterday.  It was my daughters birthday party at Pizza Hut, and I only ate half of the topping off of a supreme piece, but I did eat a bit of cake.  Then I snuck some marshmallow creme here at home, even though I was feeling so guilty about what I had already eaten.  Obviously, I still have a lot of work to do in the mental department of this weight loss thing.  Too bad I don't get dumping syndrome when I eat sugar like gastric bypass patients do.  :/
I guess I need to realize that I am going to have off days, and that I can't waste the entire next day beating myself up for it.  What a waste of time that is.  I can move on, and I must.  So I am forgiving myself.  You, Lisa, "I forgive you!"  It's ok!  It's not the end of the world, and you aren't going to stop losing weight because of a minor slip up like that.
So we'll see how the positive affirmations go.  I'll keep you posted.

Feeling stuck

This week has been tough.  I feel like I'm stuck, even though I'm still taking in a ridiculously low number of calories per day and doing my cardio.  I lost about a pound and a half this week.  I know there are people who are having 2, 3, and even 4 week plateaus after Weight Loss Surgery, but I sometimes wonder if they are eating the wrong stuff.
For the most part, I am not eating the wrong stuff.  My surgeon says that I should be eating 7-800 calories per day.  I find it counter-intuitive to think that eating more calories will help me lose weight.  So, I make sure  I eat less than 5-700.  Maybe that's what is slowing me down, and what is making me feel down too.
Could be that mother nature has made her appearance for the month as well.  Cramps never make a girl feel good.
Currently, I am eating a protein shake for breakfast most days, other days I'll have an egg and a slice of turkey bacon.  Haven't tried oatmeal yet because of the high carbs.  Lunch is sometimes leftovers from dinner the night before, but can also be about 1/3 can of tuna with light mayo and relish, or canned chicken with the same.
Dinner is usually something like fish or chicken with (if I can get it down) a bit of veggies or rice.  I need to start eating some fruit, but am not sure where that fits in to a diet supposed to be so low in carbs.  Scares me to try a banana.  Am I getting too twisted here?
:-/

I WAS depressed today

This whole weight loss surgery thing is hard to get my head around.
Now that I'm healed from the surgery (5 weeks out), I am basically on my own as far as making choices of what to eat and what not to eat.  I no longer have my liquid/full liquid/soft foods diet to guide me.  I am on solid food now, and I'm telling you...it is harder.
I have to take bites that are essentially half the size of what I am used to.  I am still trying to figure out how to eyeball half a cup (volume).  Further, I think I'm going to go to 1/3 cup at a time because when I eat a full 1/2 cup of food, I am overfull.
I am realizing that I do better eating 5 small meals rather than 3 regular meals.  When I wait that long to eat anything, my stomach is unable to accept much food, and as a result, I wasn't getting enough calories.
Last night, the family wanted pizza.  We had done this one other time since my surgery, and I had a few pieces of the sausage, because the majority of my nutrition is supposed to come from protein.  Fine.  Last night, I didn't eat the pizza itself, I scraped the cheese and sausage off the top.  Mostly protein, but mostly fat too.  Depressing after I thought about it.
I'm also finding it difficult to force myself to work out.  Today, I forced myself to get on the treadmill when I really wanted to crawl back into bed.  I jogged for a bit, and wow.  I instantly feel better.  Why is is such a challenge to just do it every day?  I KNOW it makes me feel better, usually right away.  Well, one little success at a time--I got on today, I can do it again if I'm feeling down.
I think I'll be ok.
:-)