I WAS depressed today

This whole weight loss surgery thing is hard to get my head around.
Now that I'm healed from the surgery (5 weeks out), I am basically on my own as far as making choices of what to eat and what not to eat.  I no longer have my liquid/full liquid/soft foods diet to guide me.  I am on solid food now, and I'm telling you...it is harder.
I have to take bites that are essentially half the size of what I am used to.  I am still trying to figure out how to eyeball half a cup (volume).  Further, I think I'm going to go to 1/3 cup at a time because when I eat a full 1/2 cup of food, I am overfull.
I am realizing that I do better eating 5 small meals rather than 3 regular meals.  When I wait that long to eat anything, my stomach is unable to accept much food, and as a result, I wasn't getting enough calories.
Last night, the family wanted pizza.  We had done this one other time since my surgery, and I had a few pieces of the sausage, because the majority of my nutrition is supposed to come from protein.  Fine.  Last night, I didn't eat the pizza itself, I scraped the cheese and sausage off the top.  Mostly protein, but mostly fat too.  Depressing after I thought about it.
I'm also finding it difficult to force myself to work out.  Today, I forced myself to get on the treadmill when I really wanted to crawl back into bed.  I jogged for a bit, and wow.  I instantly feel better.  Why is is such a challenge to just do it every day?  I KNOW it makes me feel better, usually right away.  Well, one little success at a time--I got on today, I can do it again if I'm feeling down.
I think I'll be ok.
:-)