Saturday, August 27, 2011

Strange...

So, for about a month now I've been stalled and have been bouncing around between 177-179 pounds.  Several times this last week I had said to myself "I just want to see 175...175 something, 175.9 even, but 175 something!"
This morning, guess what the scale said?  175.0.
Be careful what you ask for, you just might get it!
Going to try to get some miles in on the bike this weekend again with the hubby and perhaps a ride with the kids too.  I've also been doing stomach crunches while sitting upright a lot lately, whenever I think about it and it seems to be making a difference.  That's one area where I've been weak, so all the help I give it is goooood.
One good sign for me was that one of my co-workers had been on vacation for most of the month of August, and while my weight hadn't changed much at all, she said she noticed a big difference in the appearance in my hip and thigh area.  She even said I am looking skinny.  Another good sign; my clothes are fitting much differently.  I'll be heading to the resale shop for some size 12's soon.
Long story short; I love my sleeve.  It has helped make my body healthier, lifted enough weight from my body so that I could start doing things I had lost the confidence to do, made me see how people of a normal body weight eat, helped me realize that food is not the axis upon which my life spins, and has actually helped me work through some emotional stuff as well.
At the same time, my sleeve has caused me much physical pain, from the moment I came back from surgery to barely being able to get down water the next day.  The following months were a trial and error, with pasta, bread and soda being the enemies (which used to be my lovers.)  It has also caused emotional grief.  My love affair with food is not over, but is no longer allowed to monopolize my life because I simply cannot indulge the way I once did, practically getting 'high' off of my binges.  I realize now how much I counted on food to pick me up when I had fallen emotionally, and when I was just plain bored.
Question is, would I do it all again?  ABSOLUTELY.  In a heartbeat.  No question about it.

1 comment:

  1. I have three boxes full of clothes that are probably around the size 12 area. I'd be happy to send you the 'cooler' stuff if you'd like it. I can take some pictures and send them your way if you'd like to see!

    I'm so proud of you. You've come so far, not just physically but mentally as well. I think 1/2 the battle when it comes to our body issues is mental/emotional. Heck maybe even 3/4 of the battle is. I know I fight it every day--trying to be realistic and optimistic about my weight (and weight loss) and health isn't an easy thing to adhere to. You've done such an amazing job. You're truly an inspiration!

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